Today, I found a white pencil on my desk. You don’t really understand the significance of some event or item, until later – at least, that was what I have found.
A White Pencil.
I must have been 18. I worked at Apature/ACR manufacturing. I soldered, did inventory, managed speaker covers, shipping, and got coffee too.
“Marcia! Go to the lumberyard and get a pencil. I need a white pencil to make marks.”
Me: “Ok. By myself?”
“It’s just a pencil, Marcia. Do you think you can handle that?”
Me: “yea yea”
“and make it quick”
So, I get to the lumberyard and I find people and asked 2 people – hey I need a pencil. So, I never get one… and I’m like – excuse me…. and very polite – as I was raised to be.. I searched for other people to assist me. There were white pencils they were using… but I wasn’t going to grab one and take off…
No pencil. I couldn’t go all the way to the shop and tell him. So, I asked to use the phone but they were on it constantly. I left and found a pay phone. yea… before cell phones. Way before.
“Dad.”
“Where are you!”
“There was a problem. Well, I couldn’t get anyone to get me a pencil. I asked 2 different guys and the girl at the front.”
“No pencil? Go back. They’ll get you a pencil.”
“Thanks Dad.”
Yes, I had to pull strings to get a pencil.
You see, our speakers were made using particle board and formica. You wouldn’t want to lose that type of business in a small town – no less, over … a pencil, now would you?
… and that’s the day my dad taught me about …customer service…
When they found out who I was, they rushed to give me several pencils and on the house… and all showering. I don’t like kiss ass crap, but, it was a learning experience.
A few weeks later, dad took me with him to the lumberyard. When we were there, he introduced me to the guy in charge – and it turned out his daughter was the girl at the front.
Dad towered over me at 6’1. I stood right next him.. in my t-shirt, jeans and sneakers – pretty much what I’m wearing now…
“I just wanted to make sure you know who my daughter is because I’ll be sending her to get other stuff – and showing her the ropes – since she’ll be the one taking over for me.”
Priceless. The dads talked. Something about – ‘we good?’
A white pencil.
Oddly enough, I’ve taken gigs on the DL, even when management was out – not realizing it… I once had someone tell me I could hide in the server closet when management came around. As a consultant, I have seen some stuff!!!
I’m just a kid who wants a white pencil.
Dad died a month after my 20th birthday. I was penniless with no family support. I learned how to get my very own white pencils.
1986 Consumer Electronics Show with dad for Apature Industries (one subsidiary)
1995 Kinkos
Sahara and Decatur = night shift – computer services
1995 Trained in Las Vegas – Excel
The trainer was from M$ and seemed interested in my skills. I hate calc crap. My sister is an accountant… not me.
1995 Consumer Electronics Show
Badge desk temp 😉
When I sat at a video demo and started to use the equipment and make it do cool stuff, like callouts, etc.. people gathered around and I was inadvertently demoing the software. The rep started talking to me in high tech terms about specs and I was like … whoosh and threw my hand over my head…
He told me that he figured I was in the computer science field because not anyone can just sit down and start making the software work.
1996 American Printing, Host Marriott, Business Cards Tomorrow
5 years.
My worst fear is ending up like my mother – after my father passed – 31 years. Alone. She’s good with that. I’m getting there.
Heard this one in Mexico while running from a local.
I heard it in front of a clothes store front.
Then he appeared again. Go the the bus depot, they said. we’ll be there in a few minutes, they said. The local was there. Then I left the depot… because I felt cornered. He showed up 2 more times… and I jumped in front of a taxi and got away. By the way – I’m too old for this shit. That was last year.
5 years now.
I did go back for the small ones. Like a fucking warrior – at the end of my rope – hunting to find them. I was free. Who could leave little ones behind… not me. I learned right away… I’d be alone the rest of my life. No regrets. I would do it a 100x… over and over.
When I found them… over the phone – Me: I’m coming for you! I’m going to get you. I’m not leaving without you. I’m still here. Tina – 3 years old (almost 4) Right mom, whatever you say. Zack – 2 years old in the background (almost 3) : let me talk to mom. Mom… I know you are going to come for us! Me: I am. I really am.
It was his faith, his belief in me, that gave me the strength I needed to keep going. He’s 26 now. They remember NOTHING about it.
BCT – Las Vegas. 1996: DJ D Peralta saw the scar on my hand… from where I stopped the vice scrips from hitting my face. He was a great friend. He coached me… with
Not because I’m female. Not because I’m Asianish. It’s because they are asshats. Not that I don’t think that eventually the client won’t solve it. I just get them there quicker.
More efficient.
Better.
And they pay. Last couple times were kind of bad. Solving the raspberry pi and vision bonnet thing… getting it working. But… then, they did a reorg and told me to not do any more sbc work. Oh… but help the intern. The intern then gets a promotion.
This time, I solved a different accelerator issue for a vendor. Kernel drivers, config, user group… etc.
Then, they were able to release the build/product.
A week later, one of the new units arrive!
The one on my desk has been through more hands than a cheap hooker. Pieces missing, not original hard drive… hanging off a ribbon cable… who knows where the parts are… missing wifi module… 1/2… cover? whatever…
CODE VIOLATION
they gave it (the brand new unit) to someone else… who sits across from me… the intern, ironically. A different intern, but nonetheless.
